Tonight’s another party

Another party, more people. More loneliness, more boredom. It feels like I’m coming down with a strept throat or something like that. My eyes are closing, my throat is killing me. No one cares, I don’t dare say cuz no one would care. I really need to learn not to care either. I think I’m almost there. It seems like people only care about themselves. Or is it that they just don’t care about me. Do they really judge me or I just feel judged? If all they think about is themselves. Everyone is dressed up, no exceptions. People are eating, I’m not cuz I’m on a diet, as usual. I really need to lose my weight. Quickly!!